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Shepherdstown
04:08
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Well you know me
at least that’s what I think
I can’t keep my mouth shut
Especially when I drink
But at the end of the day
there’s worse places i could be
I ain't young no more
should do what i'm told
but lately being good's
been getting a little old
So I'm still sitting at the bar
when I know damn well I should just go home
I got a sneaking suspicion
That we’re al…ready alone
but I get my keen Intuition
from living with all of these ghosts
Gossip knows she’s got a good job in this town
and she knows the worst ways
to loosen up your tongue
Whiskey works but she’ll tell you
pills get the job done
Did I touch you at all
when I saw you last May
had my hair done up
cause it was on my wedding day
And I know I was drunk
but you left me sitting there so late
I got a sneaking suspicion
That we’re already alone
but I get my keen Intuition
from living with all of these ghosts
I know there's nothing much to do in Shepherdstown
But get the lead out of you boots
you better stop hangin' round
you oughta get out and find yourself a new home
Or you might just end up livin' with a ghost of your own
Maybe it’s the time
or maybe it’s the drugs
or the realization that I don’t know enough
But it’s three in the morning and I’m baking bread
I know that i wont eat
I’ve got two bad eyes
but even I can see
shadows sneaking out the backdoor
in my periphery
Are they hoping to be ignored
Or are they reaching out to me
I got a sneaking suspicion
That we’re already alone
but I get my keen Intuition
from living with all of these ghosts
I know there's nothing much to do in Shepherdstown
But get the lead out of you boots
you better stop hangin' round
you oughta get out and find yourself a new home
Or you might just end up livin' with a ghost of your own
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2. |
Emily
04:53
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3. |
Loose Cannon
03:52
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I don’t stay out late much anymore
Most nights I’m in by nine or ten
And I don’t rant and rave after a drink
You could say that I am saner then I’ve been
I used to cry at the drop of a hat
Used to feel every goddamned thing
I would crawl on my knees through broken glass
Trying to feel a different kind of pain
But I don’t dream as hard anymore
Now the world don’t feel quite as big as before
Girl you were such a loose cannon
You were such a loose cannon
Flying high I always wondered where you would land
Traveled ‘round for a couple of years
but the road was never a good fit
Every town felt new for a couple days
until I fell into the same old shit
Now I live somewhere not so far away
but it feels like a different kind of world
From open fields and late night driving
but I swear I am the same old girl
But I don’t dream quite as hard anymore
Now the world don’t feel as big as before
people said
Girl you were
such a loose cannon
You were such a loose cannon
Flying high I always wondered
Where you would land
Well I weren’t born with no hollow bones
So ya know I was never one for flying I suppose
I was falling, falling til I landed hard
tried to pull myself together but in the end I fell apart
But I don’t dream quite
as hard anymore
Now the world don’t feel as big as before
People said, Girl you were
such a loose cannon
You were such a loose cannon
Flying high I always wondered
Where you would land
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4. |
Excuse Yourself
03:59
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I’ve been crying tears
but they ain’t mine for too long
too long
Been writing bad checks
from an account that’s been closed
all along
Please excuse me if I’m out of style
But I haven’t played this game in a while
and I wouldn’t want these clumsy lips
Getting in the way of your good time
Just to be frank For a second I did think
that I might’ve loved you right
got me all mixed up in your blue eyes
although I tried with all my might
Please excuse me but it’s you to blame
sayin’ you don’t happen to feel the same
I know that I ain’t much to write home about
but I didn’t come to play this game
You seem to prefer a certain kind of girl
who’s adept at breaking hearts
But I must confess I couldn’t be less
I wouldn’t know right where to start
Please excuse me if I’m out of line
when I place bets on your breaking mine
Cause i'll be cashin' in when you’re stumbling
out the door with your last dime
Please excuse me if I’m out of style
I just haven’t played this game in a while
Cause i'll cashin in when you’re stumbling
out the door wasting all my time
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5. |
River Run
04:20
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Well that evening turned so quickly into morning
I ain’t never seen this side of 6AM
Could you hold me for a second and imagine
there aint no consequence for where i’ve been
I ain’t ready to go home and face the music
and I ain’t ready to feel bad for what I’ve done
But the sun is in the clouds and i know right about now
and there’s hardly any place for me to run
Oh my darlin wont you sleep a little longer
‘Cos I need a couple minutes to myself
trying to sort out all these thoughts and what I'm feeling
into something that might be worthwhile to tell
Cos I cant break your heart this early in the morning
And I don’t know if we should throw in the towel
So when you ask me where I’ve been
I fake a tired casual grin and all these lies pour like water from my mouth
As a girl I used to wake up from the same dream
where i’m floating in a river beneath the trees
When all of a sudden without warning
the water rose up ‘fore I had a chance to breathe
And I’m reminded of that sick and sorry feeling
when I realize you know just what I’ve done
But I can’t undo the past, the water’s flowing way too fast
nothing to do but Hold My Breath let the river run
And I don’t wanna go home and face the music
No I’m not ready to feel bad for what I’ve done
But you can’t undo the past the water’s flowing way too fast
Nothing to do but hold my breath let the river run.
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6. |
Sorrow
03:18
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Well ---
The problem with liquor’s I’ll drink it
If I keep but a drop in the house
And the problem with gossip’s
I think that it's true even if
it's just going around
And the thing about sorrow, the part
I could never get down
it will crop up all on its own
like it took the express train to town
Comes along when it wants to
Like a bad boyfriend from college
Hits you up with that
coulda been shoulda been
All that terrible knowledge
It will find you in the bathroom
when you’re trying to get ready
It will meet you as you're getting off work
and the sun is only barely setting
It will catch you off guard
on the way home you try to forget it
But as that sorrow creeps into your bones
well you know you are bound to regret it
Comes along when it wants to
Like a bad boyfriend from college
Hits you up with that
coulda been shoulda been
All that terrible knowledge
The thing about music’s it makes us feel
like we all got a story to tell
And sad songs they just conjure up sorrow
like some kind of obvious spell
Do my best to avoid it, I do yoga
and sometimes I pray
But every so often I put on a record
And let sorrow drag me away
Comes along as expected
Like you finding me drunk at the bar
When I get on with that coulda been shoulda been
you know we aint getting far
Comes along when it wants to
Like a bad boyfriend from college
Hits you up with that
coulda been shoulda been
All that terrible knowledge
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7. |
For God's Sake
03:20
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I’ve been biting my tongue
I’ve been grinding my teeth
I’ve been sleeping too long
hoping that I might wake from this dream
And I’ve been getting too drunk
taking the edge off my day
but this smiling lush
can’t lift her spirits
no matter what I drink
And I aint saying its your fault
my life’s turning out this way
I only know when you were here
I weren’t in so much goddamned pain
And Ive been sleeping alone
‘cause who could ever love me
With a heart made of stone
and eyes full of tears
and a cup that’s half empty
So if you see me someday
sleeping out on the street
Won’t you please turn away
don’t let me see what might have been
Ive got a couple of friends
I’ve got this little guitar
But at the end of the day
what I don’t got is a cure for this broken heart
And I aint saying its hopeless
this little life of mine
I’m only letting you know know
my expectations awell they ain’t too high.
And you could blame the time
you could blame the day
you could even blame god
But for God’s sake
Why Don’t you just blame me
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8. |
High & Lonesome
02:37
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I’m getting high and lonesome
Strung out over you
Do you wanna get low and loathsome
I’ve got some damage I could do
I’ve got troubles that’ll curl your hair
And worries for to turn those green eyes blue
Ever since I was a young girl
they knew that I’d soon go bad
Get my meanness from my momma
And my fighting from my dad
I sure never dreamt I’d meet the likes of you
Shoulda known from the first second that you’d prove to be untrue
I’m getting high and lonesome
Strung out over you
Do you wanna get low and loathsome
I’ve got some damage I could do
I’ve got troubles that’ll curl your hair
And worries for to turn those green eyes blue
People often ask me if I feel bad doing wrong
If I’d ever ask forgiveness
from our God or in a song
Truth is i don’t think too much on good or bad
I only know that I want everything
you tell me I can’t have
I’m getting high and lonesome
Strung out over you
Do you wanna get low and loathsome
I’ve got some damage I could do
I’ve got troubles that’ll curl your hair
And worries for to turn those green eyes blue
I guess the time has come for me
to get on down the road
Pack up all my things
and pull up every seed I sowed
Wish i could leave these memories of you
And all this awful loving
that you went and put me through
I’m getting high and lonesome
Strung out over you
Do you wanna get low and loathsome
I’ve got some damage I could do
I’ve got troubles that’ll curl your hair
And worries for to turn those green eyes blue
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9. |
The West
02:59
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Strung out again up in Michigan
so I don’t think I’ll stay here very long
and West Virginia feels like a long lost friend
but I don’t know if I can go back home
Well, I don’t know much about the West
But I can smell that salt air on your chest
And the pacific coast’s been in my dreams
Saying “darlin’ won’t you come and sit by me”
Spent a summer sweating in the trees
way down south in Smoky Tennessee
And the boys well they were mighty nice to me
but i don’t think they could give me what i need
Well, I don’t know much about the West
except for bronze skinned girls and Jack Kerouac
I think that big sky might help me to forget
about the weight that’s been hanging down around my neck
I even tried the foggy skies of London
The cold wind and the rain they got me down
And all the people made me blue as hell
I didn’t think too much to stick around
Well I don’t know much about the West
but I when I reach the Rockies maybe I could rest
inside a new ole life whatever I need best
Oh I know that I gotta give it a chance.
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10. |
In The Valley
05:27
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live at the foot of a mountain
of things other folks threw away
and my husband he weren’t such a good man
when he left i didn’t have much to say
at night you can hear the dogs barking
up the hill the street lamps look like stars
far safer than down in the valley
heaven’s always just past where you are
won’t you sing it one more time now
that old song I once knew so well
like momma used to murmur
when we had no cares at all
Close your eyes to remember
where the hill meets the endless sky
the home we were meant to grow up in
where we saw mom and daddy die
When we arrived I worked in a factory
We didn’t speak the language well
I’d walk miles to that job in all weather
You miss the rain when it’s hotter than hell
Fall asleep to the wind whistling by me
through the cracks in the roof of our home
Dream the wind lifts me out of this valley
but I can’t leave these children alone.
won’t you sing it one more time now
that old song I once knew so well
like momma used to murmur
when we had no cares at all
Close your eyes to remember
where the hill meets the endless sky
the home we were meant to grow up in
where we saw mom and daddy die
Sometimes I feel I can’t take it
Living low to the ground we can’t leave
And the fire will never stop burning
in the air that my kids have to breathe
But every day we climb out of this old shack
for a chance to work in the town
maybe someday we’ll burn down the mountain
and that way we won’t have to go back
won’t you sing it one more time now
that old song I once knew so well
like momma used to murmur
when we had no cares at all
Close your eyes to remember
where the hill meets the endless sky
the home we were meant to grow up in
where we saw mom and daddy die
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Olivia Ellen Lloyd Brooklyn, New York
Olivia Ellen Lloyd is a West Virginia-raised, Brooklyn-based country artist. Her debut album, Loose Cannon, premiered to critical acclaim in February 2021.
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